I wish I had a computer so I could be on tumblr more. I rarely reblog anymore, I’m all text xD

Just got home from my first day of a three day training class for shift management. After friday I’ll be officially certified within the company even though I’ve been managing for a bit now. The class if a little bit of a bummer because it’s reinforcement that I’m with a company where I can actually do big things for big money… If I were to be with corporate. But I work for a privately owned restaurant with no further advancement opportunities unless someone like…dies, possibly, and even then it’s unlikely. It even makes me consider using a store transfer as the catalyst for my eventual move to rock hill…but at the same time, do I want to stay with the company just because there’s the possibility of advancement if I were to do that? It’s a silly predicament. But I want to be where the class facilitators are- in charge of training and operations for many stores, not just a small crew of ~60 or so. I want to be able to say I’m responsible for a 5 digit profit increase regionally. I’m capable of it… I just work for the wrong part of the company. The wrong city, wrong franchise.

The class is a confidence booster though. I felt completely unprepared when my manager’s uniform was handed to me. I received no on the floor training, just watched some videos and attended some “classes” (read: six hrs of gossip with store owner). But I actually read the books, and I watched the other managers, and I tried to learn… And here I am in a class with 35 others, all have more management experience…. And they are dumb as bricks.
There’s a team competition and I’m super competitive! trivia contests, etc are done periodically and our teams are awarded points and at the end of the last day there will be a winner. I intend on my team winning… Except during trivia they keep rejecting my answers and giving ridiculous ones. And of course it turns out that I was right. they finally realized I am smarter and better informed than they are, and we managed to pull ahead so at the end of day one we are tied for first… But we would have had an 8 thousand point lead if they had listened to me. ONE question was “what is the most effective way to prevent food borne illness?” … Of the multiple choice answers, I selectedThe correct answer, proper personal hygiene ( hand washing anyone?) … They overruled and said use correct suppliers? Fucking really? Common sense, dudes.

Blah yeah. So I have a problem with competitiveness and being sensitive about other people not being intelligent or SOMETHING. But the class is fun, I just wish it weren’t an hr and a half drive daily…

other than that, I’m tired. I work too much. I miss my son. I’m broke. I adore my best friend Tak and I miss him and I’m really sad about the lack of tak-time in my life. My boyfriend Scott is seriously amazing. For a second I thought it wasn’t going to work out and he certainly seemed unsure but it looks like that’s all in the past now. Ancient history. He’s fucking amazing.

And it’s naptime. BUH BYE.

I still think about you like you’re one of them. You’re not, and it’s ok. I’m happy now. Very happy. But don’t ever doubt that you’re SPECIAL. you are.

I’m half in love, half asleep.

(via myyogaon)